I have spent the past few nights staring at the ceiling, wondering what the hell is going on with my life. Wondering if I am ever going to be anything or go anywhere. Thinking that I haven’t accomplished much in the 30 years that I have lived on this earth.
Something kind of weird has happened the last few nights. I have woken up, looked at the time, and it was 1:11 a.m. The first time that it happened, I didn’t think much of it. Then the next two days I woke up in the middle of the night at exactly 1:11 a.m. again.
This morning I googled what the number 111 meant, and it turns out it is an angel number that means new beginnings, optimism, inspiration, motivation, and inner intuitive voices.
Is this the sign? I wondered. Is God trying to tell me something?
I wholeheartedly believe that God sends me messages through the universe to remind me where I am going.
Dear God—thank you for leading me.
Thank You for leading me on days when I feel lost and uncertain.
Thank You for reminding me that I have work to do on this earth, and I have a purpose to fulfill.
Some days I get lost in my own thoughts; my mind gets foggy and I lose sight of my path. There are times I become distracted and disillusioned. And I forget where I am going. But You never give up on me. You always call me back to You. You remind me that I need to trust You and that You will show me what roads to take and what turns to avoid.
When life isn’t going the way I want it to go to, it’s easy to try and take the wheel from You and try to do things my way. I have always been a control freak, and I crave being in control. It makes me feel safe and secure. But I know that being a control freak isn’t going to get me anywhere. So God, please help me surrender control to You each and every day. Help me trust You deeply. I know that You are always looking out for my well-being, my happiness, and helping me to find my purpose. I have spent so much time searching for these in all the wrong people, places, and things. The problem is that only You know how to get me there and I have to let You lead me.
As much as I want to plan my own life, and I want things to go a certain way, I have to let go of all my worries and trust Your plan. And I know that what You have planned for me will make me happier than anything I could have plan on my own.
I’ll be honest, waiting can really get to me, but I simply have to have faith and believe that You have my life completely in Your hands. I have to learn how to have patience during these waiting periods. I have to trust that You not only have a set plan and future for my life, but You also have a set time in which all of these plans will manifest in my life.
I know that You have a perfect destiny set up for my life and You will be the one leading me there. You will be with me every step of the way. I’m convinced that letting You lead is the best thing I can do for myself.
Dear God, You hold the world in Your hands, and I fully trust you that You will lead me where You want me to go.