I Miss You, But I Need To Let You Go

We promised we would be together forever. We had so many plans—moving, buying a house, traveling and conquering the world. We were perfect for each other; we completed each other. The feeling of euphoria was something we held onto till one day it ended. Why did we throw away everything we worked hard for? Why did everything just fall apart?

I miss you so much it hurts. Every time my phone buzzes, I get butterflies in my stomach because I hope it’s you. At night when I sleep, my dreams are all about you. I wake up thinking that things are fine, but I look around and I don’t see you there. This pain I feel every day is something I would never wish on someone. There is never a day that goes by that I don’t wish I could go back in time and change things. Maybe I could have said or done something differently. Maybe all those times we got into an argument, I should have let it go.

This pain has kept me from living my life; I lost myself for a while once things ended. Everyone has said that time heals wounds, and in this case it has. Not being able to see or talk to you has helped. It made me wake up and realize that my life shouldn’t be affected because you left me. God has a plan for me; you were just a chapter in this plan. I cannot keep sitting around and waiting for the day you come back to me. Who knows if that day will ever come? There’s so much good out there for me, and I am ready to go find it. I am ready to walk away from the past and walk into the future. I am ready to let go of the pain that’s been draining the life out of me. I am ready to let go of the depressed person I was and discover this whole new person I can be. Going through a breakup is so hard, but finding yourself is one of the greatest feelings in the world.

I miss you. I will always miss you, but it’s time for me to move on. I am letting all the memories we’ve had together go. I wish you nothing but the best, and I hope you find what you are looking for. It’s time for me to enjoy life. It’s time to find what makes me happy and find someone new to share that happiness with. I am now letting you go.

Cat Lover

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