As 2017 comes to an end, I can honestly say that I have no regrets to look back on. Although it wasn’t the best year, it taught me a lot about the people I encompass myself with, and it taught me a whole lot about myself.
I could go on and on about all the things 2017 has taught me, like letting go, loving yourself more, so on and so forth… but what I really took from this year is that it taught me how to take chances. Actually, this whole year has been full of people taking chances. The LGBT community took a chance on letting their voices be heard again in the hopes that people would actually listen and welcome them with open arms, sexual assault survivors from all around the world took a chance again to speak up so that others may hear their stories, supporters of different parties voiced out their opinions and thoughts on their current administrations, holding nothing back… this was 2017.
We all know that taking chances can either make or break us, hence the reason so many people are afraid to do so, but once you start that first leap of faith, you’d be surprised how many steps you can take in the right direction. The chances I took this year were both hits and misses, but I wouldn’t change a single thing. I sent my first manuscript for a book to be published next year, I started writing again after having stopped for more than 6 months (which resulted in me getting free boots and commission), I confessed my feelings to someone who unfortunately didn’t feel the same way (it’s all good though), I cut my hair a completely different style after having the same look for 4 years which turned out pretty great, and so much more.
We’ll never know the outcomes of our actions unless we give it a try. It’s easier said than done, but trust me on this when I say that once you take a chance on something or someone, you’ll be left feeling lighter and at peace with yourself.
You won’t be wondering what could’ve happened or how you could’ve handled the situation because you’ve already got it out of your system.
I learned to strip myself of everything I’m not, and to mold myself into more of what I know I’m made of. I also learned to loosen up and be more adventurous with myself, which may have resulted in some good and bad memories. Moreover, I have learned to accept the fact that everything happens for a reason, even if we may never know what that reason is. Don’t beat yourself up for not knowing why certain things happen. Just simply let them be and let fate, the world, God, or whoever or whatever you believe in, to take care of it.
Now, what I wish for in 2018 is for it to take a chance on me.
If this year has been the year of proving myself and putting myself out there, I want 2018 to be the year people actually take notice because they know my abilities and what i’m capable of. I also wish that 2018 would give me a chance on more of life and love, and more experiences and realizations to learn from.
So 2018, I’m not asking you to be good to me or to go easy on me. I’m asking you to take a chance on me because I know what I can bring to the table.
I can’t wait for what the year has in store… so bring it on.