Anxiety Is The Biggest Bitch

Lately I have been struggling to write/blog. I think they call it writer’s block.

I find myself a bit lost in everything that has been going on in my personal life. I sometimes forget to take care of myself. I think we all do at some point.

We lose ourselves, but sometimes losing ourselves can help us grow and invent a brand new improved version, someone we can accept and like.

Sometimes it is hard not to be dragged down by other people and their drama and negative energy.

The past two years of my life have turned me into a completely different person. I was broken down by someone I thought I loved, only to find myself again and better my life.

I guess that was pain and suffering does to someone. But we have to find it in ourselves to be strong and build our lives again.

Some good tips I use to help keep my mental health in check:

1. Exercise. I cannot stress enough how important and healthy it is for your mental state!

2. Talk. Talk about it to someone you are close with and who you can trust.

3. Write it down. I know some people might not understand this method but I feel it is very therapeutic. Write about how you feel, write it all down. You don’t have to show anyone, you can throw it away. Just get it out of your head.

4. Meditate. If you believe it works of course, but I have always sworn by meditation and I find it is very calming and clears my mind very effectively.

Anxiety has been getting the better of me recently. I am so terrified of being hurt and let down again that its making me ill. Anxiety is the biggest bitch.

You worry about everything, then you worry about worrying, and it’s a vicious cycle. It makes you feel like you are losing your mind and going insane.

When it starts affecting your well-being is when something needs to be done.

I am grateful for the parents I have, even though they empathize what I go through on a daily basis, they do not let me give in to it.

I am sure a lot of you can understand the constant torment going on in your mind, constantly at war with your thoughts and irrational thinking. It becomes exhausting and days go by where you just want it all to go away.

I was having a conversation last night, and it made me realize I am not crazy. Certain people can bring out the feelings of being insecure and making you not feel good enough.

But we do not have to give in to what they say and how they treat us. We need to become so strong that nothing and nobody can touch us.

People like that thrive on the power and control they have over our emotions. I don’t particularly know why people are like that, I guess it’s when their own demons have taken over and they no longer have control over themselves. However, it doesn’t always need to be this way and you don’t have to put up with it.

Never feel alone, because you aren’t. Even though you may feel like the only person in the world going through it, you aren’t.

It is so easy to make the mistake that you are struggling alone, but you have to remember that there are people out there going through the same thing as you, and some of them also want to help you.

Don’t let the people who believe the stigma against mental illness make you feel hopeless. I know it feels dark now but know that the little light that is bursting to shine is waiting for you.

It will always be waiting for you, you just have to hold onto the faith that things are only going to get better if you let yourself be free and let yourself heal.