Hi – it’s… well, it’s you. I am you, the amazing you you want to be. I know right now is so hard. You keep questioning everything. Who you are, where you’re going, and how you’re going to get there when he isn’t there to see it.
I know you feel connected to him. I know you know how deep it was and how you have guilt for feeling that way when you never really knew what he felt for you. I know you can feel what he feels and you miss him and its like a wound that scabs over and you keep picking at it so it never quite heals. In fact, the wound will scar. There is no doubt about that — he will leave a permanent mark, but be grateful. This mark means permanent change, change of who you always wanted to be. Who you needed to become. Who you really are. I promise, you would not be where you are right now if you didn’t have all that time with him and the time ended.
You will remember who you were, and who you are, and where you are meant to go. Thoughts will become clearer. Things will come into focus. Colors will seem a little brighter. Dreams will be within reach again, like you can almost touch them. The sun will seem to shine a little brighter, and you will love again, and this time, even harder.
You have to remember who you are and who you want to be. You will be that person. You are (and will be) so kind, loving, open, fun and free. Right now I know it doesn’t seem possible – how can it when the thought of him not seeing you write your book tears you to pieces? Those pieces will come together again. It may take the time it takes to complete a 1000 piece puzzle, but they will start to create an image you can visualize. Edge by edge, corner by corner, and then everything in between. Everything will start to make sense again.
I know you want him to come back to you. I know you believe he will. And it’s never really over – you always will carry what you had with you as the world keeps spinning, the leaves keep turning, time keeps ticking. Cherish this. Hold it. It will give you everything you need for your book. Be okay with writing everything, never stopping, because this dream is a reality. It is beyond real, and without him leaving you, you never would have taken the plunge to fully immerse yourself and become so beautifully obsessed with capturing every thought, feeling, and story.
I know it’s hard to truly feel like you will get there. Be patient, love yourself, trust yourself, be kind to yourself. Your time will come, and it’s so soon. Prepare yourself mentally, emotionally, physically. Be everything you picture yourself to be. It will manifest and it will be amazing. Get ready for the ride of your life.
Be the light you are. Share the gift you have been given and watch what unfolds. It’s worth it. And so are you.