Because I was Asian As Constructed by White People, I did not have a real Asian self or a real white self. Even when I acted how I always had, that was not who I really was but who I had let myself be defined as.
1. You might not be able to film the birth. You probably didn’t even know you wanted to. Before your wife went into labor, you thought birth videos were at best indulgent, at worst disgusting.
I keep waiting for the anger to kick in. But I don’t have enough hope or surprise left to be angry. I’m just depressed.