‘I Love You’ Is An Understatement

You are the first person I have grown to love after being completely broken. To say you are special is an understatement. To say I love you is an understatement.

When I met you, I was happy but not me. I was drained from my past relationship and from fighting. You came along and it was just so simple. I fell fast—a little too fast for my comfort, but I felt safe around you. Being with you is like finally being able to breathe again. My walls slowly came down, and the more time I spent with you, the less I wanted to be apart from you. You became the best part of my day and slowly became my best friend, my rock, and my person. I didn’t know I could love someone else the way I love you.

I love seeing you happy. Happiness is so easy when I’m with you.

I love how I feel when I’m with you. It’s like this weight is lifted off of me and I can be 100% myself. No matter how big or little the moments may seem, I couldn’t be happier. Lying in bed with you, talking, watching horror movies, or getting all dressed up and going to date parties, it doesn’t matter. Just being with you. I feel at home with you. I love when you can’t control your laughter at some video you saw or when you wake up and pull me closer. I love the way you look at me. I love playing the sock game and running around with Nerf guns. I love when you talk about your passions and about who you want to be. I love seeing you smile. I love how kind your eyes are and how it feels when you hold me. In those moments, I know there is no place I would rather be.

You remind me that I am enough. That no matter how grim things may look, I won’t have to go through it alone. You say things like “We will handle it.” We. I never knew how much one word could mean to me. There’s nothing like knowing you are by my side when I know it would be a hell of a lot easier to not be. You make me stronger; you push me to believe in myself as an artist and as a person. That there is nothing that I can’t overcome, especially together. You make me feel like I matter, that someone in this world wants me. I will always do my best to never let you down, to always make sure you feel loved so that you never feel alone.

Whenever you are feeling down, know that I’m here. There is nothing you could do or say that would change how I feel towards you. I’m not going anywhere. I love you, and that means I am not just here for the pretty parts. I’m here for it all. I pick you; I choose you. Again and again. Immediately, undoubtedly, and instantly, I’ll pick you. I thought I knew what calm and true happiness felt like, but now that you’re in my life, I don’t think I truly knew much about those things at all. There is no one else I want to fall into when things become too much, because you are so incredible in every way possible. You’re my home. You’re unlike anything I’ve ever known, and I am proud to be yours.

Finally, I just want to say thank you. Thank you for just being there. Thank you for being that person who, even if you don’t know what to say, your presence alone brings comfort. Thank you for showing up, for not letting me down like all the others have. Thank you for dealing with my sarcasm and the times I poke you a bunch just to get your attention. Thank you for being you. I never thought I would find someone like you to love and be loved by. A love that laughs with me, a love that dances with me and stays up till three watching the Saw movies. You are easily the best thing in my life, and I couldn’t be more grateful to have you by my side.

Loving you has been moments of true love, faith, and hope. You make me see life in a light I never knew existed. You showed me that life is whatever I make of it. You make me wish I could hold on to some days forever. You make my life easier, and I’m glad you do, because I don’t think I could’ve done it alone.

I love you.

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