In Case You Come Back, You Can Stay 

Today I am letting myself feel
The small crumbs you left in between our secret language only us can decipher,
I still keep them
Read them over and over again until it bleeds
Read them over and over again until the words we once exchanged lose their meaning
I will look at you
Think of you
Every day
Every night until I forget how your eyes speaks to me
I will listen to sad songs
Make a playlist out of it until my eyes dries up ‘til morning because we don’t speak anymore
At least not now
I will do all of these
Over and over again until it gets all too familiar
Until I get used to it
But today I am letting myself feel
And I’m sorry things didn’t end well
But no matter how much this breaks me
You know I would still choose you in a heartbeat
In case you come back
You can stay.