How It Feels To Be The Girl Who Is Always Left Behind

Flickr / Alexander Steffes
Flickr / Alexander Steffes

Being abandoned constantly by the people that we love makes us question who we are.

Being abandoned by your partner, your best friend or sometimes your family makes you feel you’re not enough. That everything you did for them was nothing. Those late night talks don’t mean shit. Those letters you wrote were nothing but words.

That everything you did was completely forgotten. It doesn’t mean anything.

At our breaking point, we ask ourselves “What did I do wrong?” “Am I enough?”

“What’s wrong with me?”

“Why do the people around me keep on leaving me?”

“Maybe I’m not beautiful enough.”

“Maybe he doesn’t really love me.”

“He never did.”

You question who you are and what you are.

You thought that you did everything you could for that person. You felt that you gave him enough.

No, not enough. You gave him everything, but it’s so easy for him to throw it all away.

Throw it all away like a kid throwing his broken toy.

So easy for him to hold your heart and break it, over and over again.

At some point you’ll wonder if something is wrong with you. If you’re not pretty enough, not sexy enough, not sweet enough, not intelligent enough.

If there was something you could’ve done to prevent him from leaving. If you can still do it.

If there was something inside of you that could’ve made him stay.

If you’re really that beautiful and smart, he won’t leave you.

But as the sun sets you’re reminded that not everyone will stay.

And you hope that someday someone will come along that will never leave you.

As for the person who left you, you hope that he can find someone who loves him as much as you love him.

Because even if the people around you keep on leaving you, you will never get tired of loving and forgiving.

Because that’s who you are. Thought Catalog Logo Mark

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