Sometimes, we get so caught up in wanting everything to be picture perfect. We edit our pictures and post happy statuses and tweet lyrics to songs that are the exact opposite of our mood just so people think we’re alright. When we’re curled up in bed crying late at night, we don’t call the people who would make us feel better because we don’t want to worry them or bother them.
We have created a world where it’s not okay to be not alright.
If there’s one thing I have finally come to terms with, after many sleepless nights and mornings spent crying into my pillow and all the bullshit answers of “nah I’m fine,” I’ve come to the conclusion that it is perfectly okay to admit shit is kind of fucked up sometimes.
Sometimes it feels like everything is crashing down and you aren’t good enough and you are going to be swept up by a wave of crap and you just have to admit you can’t do it alone.
It’s alright to reach out to people and say hey I’m kind of in a rough spot right now and I was wondering if you could say an extra prayer for me.
It’s okay to answer “not so good, can you help me out?” when someone asks how you are. It’s okay to need someone to give you a motivational speech once and awhile. It’s okay to let people see you cry; it doesn’t mean you are weak, it means you have enough courage to not need to hide who you are. It’s okay to need someone to sit with you in silence for an hour just because you can’t be alone. It’s okay to have those days where you don’t accomplish anything because you just don’t want to get out of bed.
What’s not okay is not wanting it to change.
So reach out for help, say a prayer, dance around the room listening to your favorite song, curl up with some expensive coffee and read a good book, call a friend. Eat the pint of Ben & Jerry’s watch the next 6 episodes of Netflix, whatever. The go take on the world because shit, you know you can do it.
My dear, that homework assignment or that boy or that big game is not the world. You, in all your fucked-upness, are your own world. And it’s okay to take care of yourself sometimes.
P.S.- If you ever need someone to talk to, you know I’m always here.