After You Left, I Let Myself Go

Everton Vila
Everton Vila

I let myself grieve the love I had lost.
I cried, I drank, I smoked, I slept the days away.
I listened to hauntingly sad songs with lyrics that echoed my heartbreak.
I let myself be used and I felt a depth of loneliness that I did not know existed.

Then, I let myself breathe.

I did what I wanted, when I wanted, without fear of consequence.
I let myself have fun, go on dates, and meet new people.
I let my mind settle and my guilt fade.
I let my anxieties go and my fears fall away.

I let myself make mistakes. I let myself read, learn new things, and take adventures.

I let myself dream, hope, and plan for the future.

You walked away from the life we were building together. You let me go.

So, I am going to let myself go; I am going to let myself move on from you and the damage you’ve inflicted.

And someday, I’ll let myself fall in love with someone who will never let me go. Thought Catalog Logo Mark

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