Loving you was young, and wild, and free. Loving you was cool and hot, and sweet. Loving you was sunshine, safe and sound. A steady place to let down my defenses-But loving you had consequences
Love is something you wait for. You imagine this overwhelming feeling of just pure happiness. You imagine pure and utter happiness. You imagine an electric rush when you kiss. An everlasting feeling of lust. But, you never imagine the pain and the consequences.
It’s too painful to imagine the pain. It’s easier to only imagine the good, nothing but the good.
But, in some weird way, the pain of love is what truly changes you.
Every fight. Every word that lingers in your head. Your heart slowly starts to break. Little teeny tiny cracks. Like concrete before it breaks from a water break. Teeny tiny cracks.
Rare moments when your heart sinks into your chest. It could all end right here, right now.
A paralyzing sensation of massive destruction.
It’s a nightmare to think that someone you care so much about could suddenly disappear into thin air.
This moment only lasts a few seconds. But that timespan feels like an eternity. A blank stare into space that recalls every moment with him. Every detail of every minute of every second. The first time you met. Your first kiss. Your first sex. You can feel every emotion you felt at those exact moments: You snap back into reality.
The pain of love is indescribable. But, it’s worth it. The fights hurt. But, they show that you care. The screaming matches are loud and sometimes pointless, but fighting can be good sometimes. You can’t suppress what you have to say just to keep peace. If you need to say something, speak your mind. Trust me, the words will slowly eat you alive if you don’t confront your problems or issues head-on. And it could be scary, but you’ll feel a burst of relief when everything stewing inside of you is spoken.
And as for those rare moments. The rare moments mean that he’s worth it. It means that your love is something special, the type of love you wait for.
Yeah, they’re terrifying. But they make you cherish what you have.
It makes you realize that you never want to let go of what you have.