It’s fucking scary falling for someone.
It’s like you’re walking through a haunted house.
You have no idea what’s around each corner. Your heart is racing. Your heart is thumping. And thumping. And thumping. And pounding. A tornado of butterflies race in your stomach. Your hands are slightly shaking. You feel lost in a mysterious land. The rush is so exhilarating.
But, the scariest part is the unknown.
The future is unknown.
Yeah I would love it if I had a fucking crystal ball that shows me the future. But, even in the most perfect world that wouldn’t happen.
I’m not sure if the whole haunted house analogy was the best way to put it, but hey I tried.
Now, back to what I was saying.
If you’ve got a serious case of the feels. You can’t be afraid. No, you can be afraid. It’s scary. Trust me. I know it’s scary. But, you can’t be afraid to put yourself out there. To let someone else get to know the real you.
Be vulnerable. You met him for a reason. You feel this way about him for reason. No one said it was going to be easy. But if you truly care about him, if you truly want something special and amazing and chaotic and passionate- show him.
I take back what I said before. The scariest part isn’t the unknown.
It’s the fear of getting hurt.
I never thought I’d see the day that I want to fucking hand my heart and soul over to someone. But, this day has come. And I keep thinking of all these crazy irrational scenarios. I don’t want my heart and soul to be crushed. I don’t want him to take my heart and soul and stomp on them and rip them in half and walk away.
I’ve never felt this way about someone before. So, it’s all new to me.
But, I’m preaching to all of you not to be afraid. And that’s exactly what I am going to do.
I believe everything happens for a reason. A special and magical reason.
So yeah, fuck fear.
If you’re falling for someone fucking tell them.
Wow, this was a great venting sess. Thank you all so much for listening.