Thank you. Thank you for showing me my worth – for teaching me not to settle for less than I deserve. You taught me a lot about myself and what I want in life. You taught me that I deserve someone who sees the galaxies that are within me. You taught me that life is too short for love to be mediocre. I don’t regret any of the time I spent on you. Notice I said spent and not wasted. I don’t see you as a waste. I don’t regret taking you to one of my favorite places or making you an apology cookie cake. I just hope you realize what you’ve lost.
I hope you can see that you messed up. That I would’ve done anything for you. I hope one day you look back and wonder why you would have ever let a girl like me slip away. I hope that one day someone will ask you if you have any regrets and my name is the first thing that pops into your mind. I hope you regret not giving me your all and not being vulnerable with me. I hope you regret not stargazing or feeding the ducks with me. But I also hope that one day someone can teach you all the things that you taught me. I hope you find a girl one day that is worth letting your walls down for.
I hope that she is everything I couldn’t be for you. Maybe she’ll be more willing to settle down. I hope she is willing to forfeit going downtown for staying at home and watching Family Guy on Netflix. I hope she loves hot fries and Wild Cherry Pepsi and is always willing to share with you. I hope she’s the type of girl you can take home for Thanksgiving who your mom instantly loves. I’m sorry I couldn’t be that for you. But I don’t want you to miserable and live a life full of regret.
Someone once said “Compatibility and love aren’t the same thing.” I might have loved you and loved you fiercely, but in the end love isn’t always the thing that matters the most. Sometimes things just aren’t meant to work out, and I think I’m okay with that. Maybe if we’re lucky we’ll get a second chance, but I know at least I’ll be okay if we don’t.