31. The thrills, the suspense, but mostly bored and the exciting feeling of conquest.
“Why? The thrills, the suspense, but mostly bored and the exciting feeling of conquest.”
32. Since he had such little faith in me, I did it anyways.
“He told me, ‘I know you’re going to cheat on me. I just know it.’ Even though I had NEVER done anything to make him think I was. So since he had such little faith in me, I did it anyways.”
33. I might lack some basic emotions.
“I’ve cheated on all of my girlfriends with multiple girls. Excuse? None really, I enjoy the hunt and succeeding, the sex part is pretty cool too.
I never feel bad, either. I might lack some basic emotions.”
34. Some of it is about rebellion, unable to accept love, want validation blah blah blah.
“I’ve cheated on probably everyone. I have issues, naturally, some of it is about rebellion, unable to accept love, want validation blah blah blah. But getting caught up in the moment is a thing, often I’m so in the here and now that really nothing else exists.”
35. I have antisocial tendencies, which is why I pick up, use, and drop women so easily.
“I have cheated on multiple partners in the past without care. It’s almost as if when a girl gives me a bit of attention I feel I need to see how far I can go with her, even if I have no feelings or genuine intention of being faithful. This has led to me picking up multiple partners at once, convincing them all that we are ‘soul mates,’ promising them everything they’ve ever wanted, then manipulating and using them for various things. I realized when I was very young that I do not feel guilt for my actions unless I know there is a strong possibility I could get caught. Even then, it’s not really even guilt, it’s just kinda anxiety about getting caught. I have looked into things like Antisocial Personality Disorder, Conduct Disorder, and have read up on Psychopathy & Sociopathy because I feel like am able to relate to those disorders with my thoughts and feelings. I have never been diagnosed with anything but I, as well as some close family have suspected I have antisocial tendencies, which is why I pick up, use, and drop women so easily. It would make sense, because ever since I started dating it just felt natural to hide the real me in relationships, and put on a front of a ‘perfect lover’ in an attempt to get as much out of the partner as possible.”