7. ‘I was out drinking, someone started kissing me and I found that I couldn’t tell them no.’
“It was a one-night stand. I had very bad issues from past abuse that I hadn’t even begun to realize. I was out drinking, someone started kissing me and I found that I couldn’t tell them no. My mind said ‘all you’re good for is fucking people,’ so that’s what I did. I know that doesn’t make it right and I still hate myself for it.”
8. ‘I was called ugly, disgusting, and he would make me cover my face with objects while we fucked just so he didn’t have to look at me ‘
“I have a lot of remorse for this, even to this day, and there’s really no justifiable reason I made this decision. My current SO knows, I’m very open about this and I never plan on doing this again.
I was in an extremely abusive relationship where my SO degraded me and told me I wasn’t good enough. I was called ugly, disgusting, and he would make me cover my face with objects while we fucked just so he didn’t have to look at me. He’d watch porn during instead. He cheated on me and would say ‘you can’t blame me. You’re disgusting.’ It fucking shattered any self-esteem I had. It shattered my ability to have sex with the lights on. To this day, I can have flashbacks and break down while being intimate.
I had someone who was calling me gorgeous and who listened and touched me in a soft way rather than grabbing me and sticking blankets over my face. I had someone who kissed me rather than cringed at my face.
I had to stop halfway through, because the sheer amount of guilt I felt overcame me.
I did tell my ex I cheated. He didn’t believe me because I ‘was so ugly.’
We’re no longer together. It’s been years since that happened. Still hurts and still feel bad, though.”
