45. I have seen him out in public a few times and every single time I am sent into a panic attack.
“This will probably get buried but it’s good to get this stuff off of your chest sometimes.
I was in an emotionally and mentally abusive relationship for almost a year. He would always threaten to cut himself if I didn’t respond to his texts quickly enough. He left threatening voicemails saying he would kill himself if I didn’t answer his calls. He came from a very religious family and I got countless lectures from his parents about how I was living my life (I have several tattoos, which apparently makes me a whore), how I needed to be saved, how I need to go to church, etc. There were other things too but the would take too long to explain. I finally said I wanted a break and began to distance myself. Things got worse.
I’m already emotionally unstable, so sometimes I just need to be cuddled and have someone to watch a movie with. I needed some comforting one night, so I invited an old friend that I used to be romantically involved with over. When the ex found out a few days later, he started screaming and yelling about how he was going to ruin my life, because him and his family have done it before and they were all more than happy to do it again.
I blocked him on everything, told him to never contact me, my family, or my friends ever again, and called the cops. They said they couldn’t do anything unless he kept trying to contact me. Thankfully I haven’t heard from him since, but I have seen him out in public a few times and every single time I am sent into a panic attack.”