An Open Letter From Your Crazy Ex-Girlfriend
People do crazy things when they are hurt, vulnerable, or hold onto false hope.
People do crazy things when they are hurt, vulnerable, or hold onto false hope.
I have made the choice to take time away from the idea of dating. I am not making this choice because I am wallowing, rather I finally see a light at the end of the tunnel– I have found peace and clarity throughout the fog of heartbreak endured over the past few months. I honestly feel happier and healthier on my own than I have ever felt in a relationship.
Everyone seems happy, hopeful, and you pretend to be as excited as people who are in love. But your heart is breaking.
It’s really tough when you’re inevitably having a bad day and you’re on your own at the end of the night.
You were impeccably
Authentic and real,
Real and beautiful.
Beautiful- dysfunction.
And it was enough
Until you ditched me.
Leaving me behind
Like a pair of shoes
You grew out of
When it seemed like maybe you wanted more, I told you the truth. I don’t know what I want in terms of relationships right now, I have a lot going on and I want to focus on those things.
Should I go to a doctor
and list off my symptoms?
Or should I just live day after day
In my invisible dilemma?
Pursue everything your heart desires.
People don’t seem to stay,
I can’t depend on anyone
New discoveries, experiences, people,
Things to consider– circumstances–
I, too wonder what keeps me going.