It has been 18 months since you left. I wish that I could see you again so that I could tell you that you leaving was the best thing that ever happened to me. It’s funny how life works when the very person who was placed in your path created such a positive impact on your life, but also left a huge hole in your heart and ultimately changed you into a person you never thought you would become.
Because of you, I learned how to fake a smile despite how crushed I felt on the inside, putting a Singapore Airlines girl to shame.
Because of you, I learned to pull myself out of bed each morning in the initial days after you left when all I wanted to do was hide under the covers.
Because of you, I learned how to date again and to socialize with new people. I’ve become an extrovert because of you.
Because of you, I attend rock concerts, musicals, and watch the ballet now to expose myself in music, arts and culture. I visit museums and hike now because I like the quiet and I get to appreciate the wondrous nature that God has created.
Because of you, I learned how to express and write about my feelings and my writings have been published. I learned how to paint to de-stress myself and it’s highly therapeutic, this coming from someone who hated arts in school.
Because of you, I speak German now, a language I’ve always wanted to learn but never got the opportunity to, until now.
Because of you, I learned how to travel on my own and I love it because it has taught me to be more independent and it creates humility in you when you realize that having food on the table and a roof over your head is way better than owning a Goyard or a convertible.
Because of you, I’ve learned how to be alone, how to appreciate MY own company and I absolutely adore myself now. Best of all I’ve learned that your self worth is only attached to YOUR own opinion of YOU and no one else.
Talk about mending a broken heart by encompassing yourself with the vastness of nature and the beauty of arts and culture. The world truly is an elliptical classroom and you just have to attend it.
So my love, my memory of you will forever be etched in my heart like a tattoo simply because I’ve accomplished so much in my life just because you left and for that I’m forever grateful that you were once part of it.