You might wonder if you’re weak. You might be knee-deep into your self-deprecation. You might wonder whether you deserve the opportunities you have been given. You might wonder if you have lost parts of you in the process. You might wonder why you’re still trying.
When you lack the motivation to go on, you doubt everything. You may not realize it, but the way you view your worth changes. You may question what you’re doing, whether it be your studies, your career, or your life choices. You may be questioning your worth — does a failure like me deserve to be friends with someone as smart as her, do they actually care or am I just a piece in this game of life?
I know. You probably already know that these voices are telling you lies. But when you lack the motivation to go on, these doubts becomes louder than the voice of the truth.
You might be wondering if you were ever strong in the first place. When you lack the motivation to go on, you find yourself giving in to your emotions more. You question your strength when you succumb to your stress, to your breakdowns, to your tears. You find yourself feeling more distracted and losing your concentration easily.
When you lack the motivation to go on, you sometimes find yourself feeling numb. You find yourself losing control, whether it being your eating habits or your discipline in committing to your responsibilities. I know. You find yourself procrastinating as much as you can and as long as you can. You lose passion for the things you used to love.
And I’m here to tell you that it’s okay. It’s okay that you may feel like this for a while.
But when you lack the motivation to go on, know that you will get up again. When you lack the motivation to go on, know that it won’t be permanent unless you allow it to be. You will get up again because you are stronger than you think you are. You will get up again, just like before.
When you lack the motivation to go on, know that this does not reflect on your worth. I promise, there will be better days and better moments ahead.