I am slowly learning to let go.
Of the things that I cannot control. Of the reasons that I cannot grasp for why things happen the way they do. Of the endings that come out of the blue. Of the events that are unjust. Of the past that does not define me.
Slowly, I am learning to release old history and judgment, knowing that they have no place in my life today. I am absorbing peace, serenity, and calmness to enrich my soul and deepen my understanding of myself. I am learning to listen to my body and taking good care of myself. I am choosing to be intentional with the people I spend time with and cut off contact with toxicity and negativity. I am accepting that everyone is on a different timeline and I should only focus on becoming better than the person I was yesterday.
However difficult it is, I am learning to slow down and trust in the process. That the universe has a magical way of knowing what I need and is guiding me towards it. In the waiting, I am worthy of love, compassion, and patience. I should attempt to be kinder and gentler to myself and ignore the tiny voice at the back of my head that threatens to unleash my darkest insecurities. In the transition of new beginning unfolding, I am learning to be present at the moment as I allow myself to be open to endless possibilities and growth. I am starting to accept that I am getting stronger and more evolved with each trial and tribulation that I go through.
I am slowly learning that in letting go, I am making space for a brand new beginning.
For all that falls apart and spins out of control, I am still standing and thriving. For all the failures that I am hit with, I am reminded of how unshakable and strong my faith is and how it is guiding me towards the light. For all the times that I am lost and confused, I know that I will find my way eventually. For all that happened in the past, I know that hope will find me in the morning, where I will be free to begin anew.
I am slowly learning that I am right here where I should be.
In the mess of uncertainty, it’s easy to be caught up in all that went wrong with our lives. It’s easy to be fixated on all the problems that we have to solve. It’s easy to believe how far we have fallen behind and give in to the dark frustration and hopelessness that drowns us so rapidly. It’s easy to stay stuck in the past, wondering if our best days are behind us. It’s easy to give up and stay stagnant and uninspired, believing the untruth that we don’t deserve a better life.
But slowly, I am learning that it’s okay to take things one step at a time without the need to rush to our final destination. It’s okay to slow down in our journey and take a moment to ourselves. It’s okay if we’re not feeling okay at all times. It’s okay if the biggest struggle is making it through the day.
Because sometimes we have to fall apart before things fall into place. We have to believe that beautiful and worthwhile things take time. I know that my journey has only just begun and I am doing the best that I can. I am learning to be strong, and at this moment, it is enough.