To The One Who Put The Twinkle Back In My Ex’s Eyes, Thank You

Hannah Cauhepe

To the one who put the twinkle back in his eyes…

I’m so happy he found you. And I’m even happier that he’s accepted that.

It’s been three years since we broke up. It wasn’t easy, saying goodbye to something you thought was going to last forever. But date nights became overnight fights, and eventually the fights became periods of silent treatment. Soon enough, neither of us cared or even bothered to argue. It wasn’t an ugly breakup though. We still talk. We still ask how the other one is doing. We still catch up over coffee or beer. Pretty much, we’re still part of each other’s lives. How can we not? We practically grew up together. Nine years worth of history isn’t something you can just ignore.

I’ve moved on, or rather, I had to move on, way before he did. And the truth is, I’m happy he finally did, too. I was pretty scared for him at first. He kept on insisting he’ll never look for anyone else. That he vowed to himself that he will only love one person in his life, and that person used to be me. He’d text me in the middle of the night and tell me he misses me. He’d ask me if I have a new boyfriend. He’d be so drunk on some nights and ask me to give our relationship another chance. I was so worried about him before that I wanted to take it all back and just stay with him instead, even it meant our relationship wasn’t growing anymore.

But now he has you. He will probably eat his own words when he sees photos of you together and sees himself smiling like he’s never been this happy before. Or when he thinks about you during the day and randomly calls you to tell you he loves you. Or when he’s bear-hugging you and never want to let go.

As much as this comes off as me being jealous, I’m not. He deserves someone like you. And please, for your own safety, please don’t even think of hurting him. Or else you’ll see me in my most revengeful and monstrous form.

I won’t tell you things about him that you will most likely discover on your own. You’ll probably even get to know him way better than I did. I won’t tell you his favorite food or book, or what kind of jokes make him laugh like crazy, or even how to handle his temper issues. You’ll find out soon enough and you’ll enjoy getting to know him. You’ll never be bored, I promise you.

But I will tell you this…

This man has the biggest heart you’ll ever encounter. He has so much love to give. He may seem overly aggressive with other men or when he loses in his computer games, but he will be ever so gentle with you and he will never lay a hand on you. He’s very sensitive and can tell when you’re stressed. And while he’s not a fan of PDA, he will tell you affectionate words that will soothe you and calm you down. He can easily make you believe every little bad thing that happens is all but a phase and will pass soon enough. His love will leave you smiling like silly whenever you hear his songs for you on the radio. He will probably make you tons of playlists of songs that remind him of you. He will send you random movie quotes during the day and it will make a long and tiring day better. He will have the best intentions at heart. Please try your best to understand him and see the best in him, as he does with you. Don’t give up on him no matter what, like how I did. I promise you he will be the best thing that’s ever happened to you.

Lastly, I want to thank you. For being with him now. For making him realize that there’s nothing wrong with giving love another chance. For giving him the happiness that I can no longer give him. For loving him.

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