Goodbye Seems To Be The Hardest Word

At the age of 20, I have said goodbyes for countless times. No matter how much I wish to stay, life has to go on. It is definitely for the better even though it consists of sorrow and tears. As much as I hate saying this, but people walk in and out of our lives. Although there are people that I will never be able to say goodbye to, I have to wipe away my tears and let them find their ways out. Some people are just not meant to be in our lives and although some of them would still be there, nothing would be the same again.

Two months ago, I came home for summer break. I moved to another city for an internship that I enjoyed doing. Since then, I met a lot of people that I never expected to have met in my entire life. These people were nice, but complicated in a sense. At the same time, I fell in love with a guy who I innocently thought he meant something more. Everything felt so right. I could still remember what we had in that short while because we were so similar. It did not last. He left me. This was the first goodbye I had to say. I forced myself to walk away from everything we once shared. As much as I still wanted to be close to him, I failed because he did not want me in his life anymore. He said goodbye, so I had to.

Second goodbye was the time where I left everything behind to continue my final year in overseas. Despite the fact that this would be my forth year studying abroad, saying goodbye to my family and friends was still the hardest. Even when I was about to leave, I would love to see my parents or my brother once more.

It is never easy to say goodbye. There is familiarity that we have for one another, the happiness that we share with each other. All these feelings that are appealing sometimes stop us from leaving. We hesitate, because we wonder when will we be able to see these people again. Perhaps we will never see them again, perhaps one day we will see them walking on the busy street and we will greet, have a small talk. Although goodbye seems to be the hardest word to say, keep faith that saying goodbyes is in fact a new path to hellos. Thought Catalog Logo Mark

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