I stood there, mouth gaping, eyes blinking a mile a minute, dumbfounded. I couldn’t believe what just happened. In less than an hour my entire world had been flipped upside down. One minute we were slow dancing with a glass of wine to our favorite John Mayer song and the next I was alone, watching you walk away for the last time.
I knew that would be the last time I would ever breathe in your embrace. The last time I would ever feel your arms wrapped around my shoulders, holding me tight. I knew I would never hear your voice again, let alone see a smile on your face. The feeling of knowing this crushed every fiber of my being. I felt like I was being buried alive.
It was the cruelest thing you had ever done. It was selfish and it was wrong. Just because there was no big blow out, just because none of us had been disloyal, doesn’t make any of this right. You made a decision that you knew would destroy me and you didn’t even bat an eye. It was like it was just another day for you.
I should be angry, I should be yelling at the top of my lungs. I should have burned everything you gave me, deleted every picture we ever took. But I’m not. I’m letting you off the hook. I’m giving you the easy way out. I’m forgiving you even though you don’t deserve it.
I don’t blame you because you never really knew what love is. You have never felt it the way I have. What we had was close, but it was not real love. It was smoke and mirrors, a reflection of what real love is.
You tried to love, at least I think you did. But you can never love the way I love.
And that’s okay, and that’s why I will not keep you any longer. It is not fair to me to waste another minute worrying about a love that is nothing but a forgery. A scam worked up by the con artist you are. You pilfered the love you desired but could never provide.
But that’s what makes all this so easy. There’s no need to fight, there’s no need for me to put in any more effort. And because I won’t do that, you get to walk away thinking you did the right thing.