What changed over the last three years is not the places or the people I have met along the way. What has changed, is me. What changed, is me finally putting myself first. What changed, is me deciding that I am worth it. That I deserve a happy life and a career that I adore. What changed, is the mindset of believing in myself again.
I used to think hair dryers were something that took too much effort for what always turned out to be frizzy and dry hair.
Our story ended shortly. But now I think it was supposed to be that way. It was almost too good to be true. You were almost too pure. Too bright, you could have blinded me.
I have still so much to do. So much to see. So many more people to meet and people to love and adore. I have so much more exploring to do. Exploring myself, figuring out what makes my heart race or slow down. I have so much to learn about me. So much to grasp onto and to soak up what life has to give me.
Tears drip softly down your face and it stings when it hits your chest. ‘Bye’, you say, knowing fully well he can hear your soft cries. ‘Bye’, he says, with his own tears soaking through the other line. Click.
It doesn’t matter the severity of the assault. Taylor Swift was grabbed from her behind, and I was touched deep inside of me. But we are the same. Because our bodies were violated. Our bodies all of a sudden, weren’t in control anymore.
You told her it wasn’t her fault. You told her it was all you. But how can she believe that now?
Aquarius: For 2018, you will have so much to look forward to! The number one thing you have to look forward to is a new friendship that will blossom and grow into true love. You will no longer have to wait for the big love you have always dreamed about. Congratulations!
Don’t give up. Don’t lose hope inside of your heart and your entire being. Don’t let yourself be discouraged. Don’t beat yourself up. Don’t compare and contrast yourself to other people who are settling down.
In 2018, I will continue to grow and to love myself despite mistakes and faults. I’ve never been good at making mistakes. It makes me want to bathe in my own guilt and want to disappear forever, hiding out of shame. But, maybe in 2018, I can learn a healthier way to deal with failure. In 2018, maybe I can learn how to turn my mistakes into something bigger and better.