She Doesn’t Need You To Be Happy Anymore

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Oladimeji Odunsi

She used to think she needed you. She used to think she could never live without you. Truly, deeply, she felt it in her soul that you were meant to be with you. And just as truly and deeply, you left in the blink of her tired eyes.

The truth is, she never actually needed you. She just thought she did. Because you sucked up all her light. You sucked up all her energy and all her radiating beauty. You turned it into gold, but only for yourself. You did everything, for you, not her.

You made her think that she needed you for everything and anything. You made her think that she needed your hugs and kisses and smiles in order to breathe. And you made her dependent on you.

But now that you’re gone she sees it clearly now.

Now that you’re gone, she wakes up in her bed alone. She is alone, but she is never lonely. Now that you’re gone, she gets her own cup of coffee, amazed how the littlest things bring her so much joy.

Now that you’re gone, she can smile without seeing you smile first. She doesn’t need you anymore. She doesn’t need your reassurance. She doesn’t need you by her side now. She doesn’t need your love and she doesn’t need your toxic remarks. She doesn’t need your sarcasm and the way you laughed at her dreams. Hell no, she doesn’t need you at all.

It took her a while to realize this. To realize that she was capable of happiness on her own. It took her weeks to come to terms with the fact that you weren’t coming back. And it took her months to fall back in love with herself.

But now she knows. She never needs your love again. She doesn’t need your body or your mind or your soul.

She wipes her own tears now. She wakes up on her own. She smiles and laughs and giggles without you. She flies and glides without your weight on her back. She has learned that she doesn’t need another human being to feel whole. She has herself and for once, that is enough.

You used to be her world. Her galaxy. Her setting sun. Her dying dawn. But with time, she realized that she was and is her own damn universe.

And she doesn’t need you in her way. Not anymore. Thought Catalog Logo Mark

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