When You’re Ready To Live A Better Life, But Your Anxiety Isn’t

Christian Gertenbach
Christian Gertenbach

Anxiety is something that is always evolving, growing, and changing. It has a mind of its own that doesn’t really care about how happy or content you are in life. Anxiety quite frankly, couldn’t care less about your well-being.

You see, anxiety doesn’t really give a fuck about you. Anxiety just wants you to fret, to worry, to sink further into its dark waters and to watch you drown there.

Anxiety wants you to get so caught up in its echoes and whispers and lies, that you can’t even remember a time where anxiety wasn’t in your life. 

Anxiety doesn’t adapt well to change or to life altering moments. Anxiety doesn’t care if you are excited about moving to another state, or if you finally got an amazing promotion. Anxiety doesn’t care about your accomplishments, because all it does is focus on your failures.

And as soon as good news hits you, anxiety comes along and tries to ruin it for you.

It doesn’t matter if you just got the man of your dreams, the job of your dreams, or the life of your dreams. It doesn’t matter.

Anxiety is going to sneak into your mind and tell you that you’re going to mess up. Anxiety is going to talk to you at night, telling you that pretty soon, you won’t be so happy anymore. Anxiety is going to make it known that you are a fuck up. That you fail more than you succeed, and that you fall more than you climb.

So what happens when you want a better life for yourself? What happens when you finally want to move on from the past and start all over? What happens when you finally get what you have dreamed of? What happens then?

You can’t let anxiety drag you down no matter how hard it tries to push you with its ugly fists. You can’t let anxiety make your accomplishments and your beautiful moments into something that isn’t important. You can’t let anxiety tell you that you aren’t good enough.

Because you are good enough. You’re so much more than good enough.

I don’t know how to make my anxiety go away completely. I don’t know how to make yours go away completely. But I do know one thing – anxiety doesn’t have to define you. It doesn’t have to have so much weight on top of your shoulders. It doesn’t have to turn your world upside down.

So when something beautiful happens in your life, soak it all up. And when something wonderful is being brought into your life, hold onto it as hard as you can. And when your dreams finally start coming true and all that you have worked hard for is actually turning into something amazing, don’t let anxiety talk you out of it. Don’t let anxiety tell you that you don’t deserve this. Don’t let anxiety wear you out until you find everything you have worked so hard for slipping away.

Don’t let anxiety dictate how you see yourself. Don’t let it creep into the corners of your mind. And don’t you dare believe anything it says to you. Because one day, you’re going to have all that you want, and you’re going to have all that you need. Your dreams are going to turn into a reality for you, and you are going to be so, so, incredibly happy.

So when that happens to you, don’t let anxiety trash talk you into believing that you don’t deserve to flash that smile proudly around wherever you go. Don’t let anxiety turn your light off. No matter how hard it tries to suck your happiness out of you.

Don’t let it become the winner of your world. And don’t let it take away this life that is yours. Thought Catalog Logo Mark

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