1. How To Love.
I don’t know about you, but I’ve never had a love lesson taught to me in school. Sure, I know where to place my commas, and I know the basics of Algebra, but do we ever get taught how to communicate with one another effectively? Do we ever get taught the right and wrong way to treat someone we care deeply about? Do we get lessons on physical abuse and mental abuse that some relationships can involve? Did we have ever have a homework assignment based solely on the importance of self love? I never did.
2. How To Say Goodbye.
So, maybe we fall in love. Maybe we are lucky enough to have the feeling reciprocated back to us. But, what if that love isn’t enough? What if long distance is involved? What if someone cheats or lies? What if you grow apart? How do you say goodbye to the person you thought was your world? How to say goodbye without falling apart on the sidewalk? I don’t know. No one does.
3. How To Let Go.
So, we say goodbye. We fall apart. We can’t eat. We can’t breathe. All we know how to do is to sleep, cry, and fall apart some more. All we know how to do is stare at our phones, begging for a response back. All we know how to do is get drunk to try to forget. But we can’t forget. We’ll never forget.
4. How To Move On.
We failed at love. We failed at saying goodbye. We failed at letting go. And now we fail some more at moving on. We find someone who fills the void for a few days. We still scroll through our exe’s Instagram, staring at the way their smile turns up to the sky. We look back on photos when the love was real, and when you didn’t have to fake your own happiness. We don’t know how to forget. And when we can’t forget, we don’t know how to live like we aren’t ghosts of our past selves.
5. How To Survive.
We try breathing through our nose, but it’s always stuffed up. We try to go to the gym, to make ourselves feel as if we are stronger than we really are. We try to drink eight glasses of water a day, but we end up drinking too much wine instead. We never know how to stand up tall anymore. We just know basic math, vocabulary, and grammar skills. But, we don’t know how to truly live.