The moment when everything you’ve fantasized becomes a reality, but that reality becomes nothing more than a disappointment.
I still tell people about you like you’re my everything.
I miss how I knew you would always be there. I miss the bestest friend I’ve ever had.
I think I am about to be your first real pain.
The truth is, the volume of our silence is louder than our words ever could be right now. You are you and I am me, and our worlds are apart now. Our silence is the sound of our confusion, our pain, our liberation, our care, and our love.
You are 189km away and you are beside me. You were then and you are always. You are distance and you are closeness.
I know I will probably wait forever to see you fight back, if you ever do at all. And that is why I am focusing on myself. Myself, alone.