I’m sorry it couldn’t work out with us. I’m sorry the relationship fell apart between me and your other owner. I’m mostly sorry I didn’t fight harder for you. I’m sorry I gave up too easily.
Sometimes I think I see a glimpse of you as I drive by a park, but then I realize it isn’t you. I sometimes wonder how I would react if I saw you again.
I think about how I would want to run up to you and hug you tightly.
I often wonder how you would react; if you would get excited to see me or if you would even remember me at all.
Sometimes I think of you when I hear fireworks and I wonder if he’s holding you the way I would. If he’s comforting you in the ways I used to when you were scared and frightened of the world outside that you couldn’t understand.
I really hope he is.
Sometimes I wonder if he holds you the way I would. I wonder if he kisses you the way I would. I hope he is holding you and giving you the love and affection you deserve.
And sometimes I wonder if the new person who took my place will love you the way I loved you. if she understands the love I had for you.
I sometimes wonder if she understands how much we loved you and how much we wanted our life together to be a happy family. To be a family who rescued you and chose you and lived happily ever after together.
But we couldn’t be a happy family together. We would fight and you would hide away frightened by our screams at one another. You were torn between the two of us and used as a pawn in a chess game you couldn’t understand. Sometimes the love two people had for one another changes and I’m sorry for the way it affected you.
I hope you will forgive me for leaving you.
I hope you will forgive me for leaving you with only one owner instead of two; for leaving you even though my heart wanted so badly to keep you.
I hope whoever holds you at night loves you the way you deserve to be loved because you are an amazing, incredible dog who deserves a home filled with happiness.