The coldness of the air when the winter begins makes me miss you some days,
some days it makes me forget you entirely.
The cold air reminds me of you,
It reminds me of the pain we shared together in the final moments before we broke.
But I’ve started healing my heart,
Started understanding that it is time to move on.
I am finally letting you go
I am finally letting go of the life that we were supposed to have together.
I am finally learning to let you slowly not be in my thoughts every day
I am finally forgiving myself for the life i couldn’t give you.
I am finally learning to forgive you for the things that you said when we were together
I am finally learning to forgive you for the things you said when we were apart.
I am finally learning that I can live without you
I am finally learning that I can stand on my own,
despite you thinking I would crumble into pieces without you in this big city
The city we moved to together
Thinking we would somehow conquer it together.
I am finally learning to heal my heart after months of struggling
and falling apart
and piecing itself together again
slowly but surely healing itself again.
I am finally learning that I can do this thing called life without you
that the world still turns without you
that my life still remains whole without you
that my friends are still my friends without you
I refuse to forget the love we shared
but I am finally able to forgive you
finally able to hear about your new life
Finally able to be thankful for our life together.
But I am learning to finally let you go
finally allowing my heart to rid itself of the space you filled
to allow for someone new
as my heart no longer belongs to you
It no longer belongs to heartbreak
no longer belongs to the failing of our life together
it no longer belongs to you
I no longer belong to you.