Everything I Lacked, I Found In You

Jairo Cajilima

It’s amazing how one person can contribute so much to our lives. I never thought that two people could complement each other so much in the way you and I do. For some reason, my weaknesses are your strengths, and yours are mine.

I overthink. I’m paranoid. I overanalyze everything. You helped me think clearly, analyze correctly, and collect my thoughts properly. You provided solutions when all I could do was stress about problems. You made my decisions when I couldn’t decide for myself.

You gave me answers when I could only wonder why and how and what. You kept me sane when I couldn’t think straight. You helped me be reasonable in all that I do, and there I realized that the rationality I lacked, I found in you.

I’m overly sensitive. I cry at the littlest things. My tears fall as fast as the weather changes. When I’m too weak to handle the difficult moments that life hands to me, you give me the strength to face them all. When I’m too scared to know what the future has in store for me, you give me the assurance that everything will be okay, no matter how the future goes.

When I fear being judged by the people around me, you remind me that I should stay true to who I am nevertheless. And in between those fleeting moments, I knew that the courage I lacked, I found in you.

I’m insecure, unable to find beauty in myself. In the moments that I don’t feel beautiful, you’re there, reminding me that I am. In the moments that I’m unhappy with my body, you’re there, telling me that I look better this way.

In the moments that I complain about the way I talk or walk or sing or even write, you’re there, showing me that there’s nothing to complain about. In the frequent moments that I doubt my capabilities, you’re always there, supporting me along the way. You believed in me when I couldn’t believe in myself, and in that instance I understood that the confidence I lacked, I found in you.

I’ve always known that I had so much love to give, but I never had the chance to give it all. In the past, I gave love that was limited and careful. I thought the time will never come that I can give all of it, but then I met you. Although there are still moments that I couldn’t give my 100%, you provided what I couldn’t. I’ve read before that love is not always 50-50. Sometimes, days will come that I can only give you 10%. In those moments, you provided the 90. During the moments I felt like I’m incapable of loving, you loved me still. Unconditionally. And in those times I have proven that every percentage of love I lacked, I found in you.

People say that we don’t need others to make us whole, we don’t need other halves because we our capable of being whole alone. That may be true for some, but not for me. Somewhere along the way, I felt that something’s missing. I couldn’t exactly pinpoint the void but I know that it’s there.

Then I met you. I think that when we become blessed in this life, someone will come along to provide the things we can’t provide for ourselves. That’s when we realize that we do need people, and there’s nothing wrong with that. There’s nothing wrong with wanting to fill the void, nothing wrong with collecting pieces to make us whole. To me, you’re that person. The one who completes me. My other half. The missing puzzle piece. Without any explanation, I know that we just work. We fit. We complement one another.

Through all the times I’ve spent with you, I’ve decided that I will do everything to keep you by my side… because I’ve proven that everything I lacked, I found, and am continuing to find, in you. And for some insane reason, I know that what you lack, you can find in me, too. Thought Catalog Logo Mark

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