I Deserved A Better Ending

It’s unfortunate that things had to end this way. To be honest, it’s more disappointing than anything. I felt like a part of me knew all along that this was going to happen but didn’t want to realize the truth of it. I was having too much fun laughing and living in memories to believe what was in front of me.

I don’t believe you are a bad person and never will, but sometimes your actions can be deceiving, and it all starts with a lie. Even from the beginning it started with a lie, and I just let it go believing that you could somehow change into the honest man I knew you were deep down.

You showed me a lot of different sides of you, and my favorite was your smile and your humor. And I will never forget that. As much as you may hate me, and as much as I may hate you at this moment, you know I’m still here for you. I just can’t be there for you if she is.

To be honest, I don’t know what I did wrong. I question myself why it went the way it did, and what I could have done to be a better, more supportive girlfriend, but it all went back to that I did everything I could up until you left me.

When someone starts to push back on things, you just can’t force it. I know I’ve made mistakes, but I’ve learned from them, and I hope you will too. I will grow and learn from this, and I hope you will as well. It’s not too late to stop what you’re doing and think about what it really means to be happy with yourself and what it means to please yourself and not others.

I’m sorry if I ever did anything to make you feel anything less than amazing, because at one point you were that way with me. I’m sorry if I ever broke your heart or said hurtful words. I’m sorry if I ever felt too controlling or too overpowering. I’m sorry if I was never supportive enough. I’m sorry if I ever made you feel any less than important.

I can’t change the past, but I can change the future. As I write this, I feel a bundle of emotions because of the way I feel right now. However, I know that I didn’t deserve to be treated the way that you treated me in our last moments. I deserved a better ending.

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