I have realized lately that fear has occupied so much of my life for so long and in many ways I didn’t even realize it. I’ve always been so hesitant to change anything in my life or to start anything new even if it was something I really wanted to do because I would always be scared that I would fail or I would care too much about what other people would think.There are a million excuses I could make for any situation. Whether it was speaking up for myself, quitting my job, walking away from a toxic situation, starting something new or anything that involved going out of my comfort zone, I made an excuse for it. Even this blog, this was a huge step out of my comfort zone, and I still get nervous and judge myself as I write. It’s not something I have even come close to mastering yet, but I am trying acknowledge when I’m making an excuse for things that scare me and realize that there probably no harm in doing any of those things. In fact, doing something and realizing that it isn’t for me or realizing that my decisions were wrong is a lot better than continuing to be scared and wondering what would happen if I did them.
I’m not saying don’t ever be scared, that wouldn’t make us human. But letting your fears drive you and make or prevent your decisions is disabling you from being whatever it is you want to be. You’re meant to be great, don’t let something such as fear hold you back. Being scared makes you stressed and overwhelmed and you probably feel like you’re the only one feeling that way, and you’re not. It’s not easy, and like I said it’s not something I have mastered by any means, but it is something I think is worth working towards.
No one is judging you as much as you think they are and no one is going to stop you from doing whatever it is you want to do. And also- if anyone is going to try to judge you for doing something that you enjoy then it says a lot more about them than it does about what you’re doing. You don’t need validation from anyone, you don’t need to impress anyone other than yourself, and don’t apologize for doing it. Do not be ashamed or embarrassed or scared for taking a step towards getting what you want. Take a chance, you’ll thank yourself for it later.