Wouldn’t it be peachy if recovery from an addiction was linear?
I am going to give myself a break.
My fear of missing out was magnified by the fact that I did not trust myself or value my intuition enough to follow it let alone listen to what it had to say. I was consumed with missing out on things that weren’t even part of my internal value system and obsessed with being socially excluded.
What I do know is that I’m hurting because you left. And now I’m alone, and forced to be strong, and to figure out who I am in the darkness.
It should seem obvious that we be the sole humans deciding our own worth, yet so many of us are lead to believe worth comes from external sources.