Sometimes we all get caught up in only praying when we want something. We only pray when we are struggling or need hope. And God’s always there even when we aren’t giving him recognition during good times.
But I want to take a moment to say thank you.
It’s a word you don’t hear much when on I’m my knees praying on Sunday.
But I want to say thank you for everything right now.
Some of the things I have right now I forget I prayed for a long time ago. Whether it’s certain people who stayed or where I am in my life or my relationships with friends and family.
Right now it’s a good moment. And during this good moment I want to count my blessings. Because I know things don’t always stay perfect and I’m going to be faced with struggles and my faith is going to grow wary when things grow wrong. And I might forget to say thank you.
There’s going to be moments I know in the future where I’m asking for things and wondering why you are ignoring me. But I know that you never ignore us and there is a time for everything.
So I want to say thank you.
Thank you for teaching me patience in moments I was demanding.
Thank you for giving me strength in moments I felt weak.
Thank you for not giving me what I wanted and instead what I needed.
Thank you for protecting me in moments I might not have been safe.
Thank you for being the light when I was in the dark.
Thank you for being my company in moments I wanted to be alone.
Thank you for healing me when I was hurt.
Thank you for forgiving me in moments I sinned and did things I wasn’t proud of.
Thank you for guiding me as you have.
Thank you for believing in me and giving me someone to believe in.
Thank you for loving me unconditionally when I couldn’t figure out how to love myself.
Thank you for everything in my life and all I have.
Faith is a strange word for me. It’s not something I talk about often but it’s one of the more important parts of my life. People ask if I’m religious. I nod and don’t say much more. I don’t tell them I’m in mass every Sunday. That I have every word memorized. That I keep a bible close to my bed. But I do.
But right now at this moment where I am eternally grateful for all I have I want to you thank yiu for all you’ve given me. And I can only hope the choice I continue to make reflect both my own values and are things that would make you proud.