She’s the one you talk to when you’re bored. The one you think will always be there. That after thought that comes when your mind starts to wonder.
She’s the text you know will get answered. The one you know with certainty would do anything for you.
She’s the plans you don’t feel bad canceling.
The late night text when you didn’t seal the deal with someone at the bar.
The one you like to play games with just because you can. You like seeing how she reacts to everything. How quickly she’ll open a snap you send and how she answers every time. The person who viewed your story first even though the only reason you posted it was in hopes someone else would see.
She’s your security blanket in a way. The one who has been there when things have gone wrong, comforting you and building you up even when she didn’t ask the same.
She’s the one who rearranges her schedule and make sacrifices in those moments you do make the time to see her. But you don’t see that.
She’s the yes you know you’ll get and the effort you don’t reciprocate.
The one who will never say something unkind or call you out on your bullshit even though you know you deserve it.
She’s the one you’ve taken for granted.
What you see is weak for caring too much and showing it, someone else will see as value. And in return, they’ll treat her the same she’s treated you.
What you see as easy to read and predictable, someone else is hoping they meet someone who is that honest and real and straight up with the things they want and how they feel.
What you see as some game is the respect she has for everyone to not allow someone else’s unkindness and negligence to impact her. And someone is going to come into her life and he’s not going to play games or mess with how she feels because unlike you he’ll respect her.
What you see as some late night text and her responding will be met with silence when she meets someone who falls asleep next to her at a normal hour.
What you see is someone who is always there is really shows is loyalty and faith and her inability to give up on people she cares about. And someone is going to see that and not take it for granted or see how far they can push her.
What you see as weak because you can talk to her how you want act however you feel like someone else will see as strength because it takes a lot to control your emotions.
And one day someone is going to take the chance she wanted you too.
At first, it’s going to be unfamiliar to her because she’s used to you, not someone who treats the way she deserves. There might even be moments of missing you. But once she walks away she’s never going to go back to what you might have had or what she tried so hard to have.
Because when someone good comes into your life you don’t take them for granted. You value them and appreciate them and do things to ensure you don’t lose them.
She didn’t want to leave but you didn’t give her any reason to stay.
So when someone else comes into the picture she’ll take a chance on him. And the difference between you two, (other than the obvious characteristics of him being a better man) what it came down to was she gave him one chance and he rose to the occasion. Meanwhile, she gave you so many more and all you did was disappoint her and let her down.
Her absence won’t hit you immediately. You might even think you’re better off without her in your life. But one day you’re going to need her. You’re going to miss her. You’re going to want her. And when you reach for your phone and you’re not even know how to say hello. And that’s what is going to break you…the girl who didn’t leave you with a goodbye because it hurt her just as much to walk away.