To The Friends Who Love Us When Boys Can’t Seem To

To the friends who dry every tear I wish I wasn’t crying.

To the friends who pick up the pieces even though you warned me about him.

To the friends who told me to walk away when all I did was run towards him.

You just watched knowing I was making a mistake but you knew I had to learn for myself.

To the friends who never said I told you so.

To the friends who love me unconditionally when it’s me who has to learn to love myself.

To the friends who watch me give my best to the boys who don’t deserve it.

To the friends who watch me make the same mistakes with the same people.

To the friends who want to curse him off but bite their tongue.

To the friends who reassure me and build me up because this rejection broke me.

To the friends who tell me I’m pretty enough, smart enough and good enough time and time again even though I’ve questioned it because of him.

I hear you.

To the friends who don’t want to talk about him anymore but know I need to so you listen.

To the friends who hate him the way I should but I keep telling you I love him.

To the friends whose hearts hurt for me thinking this is love when all it is, is self-destruction I’m choosing.

To the friends who answer calls late at night and you know I’ve been drinking more than I should.

Drinking to forget. Drinking to numb pain. Drinking to talk about things I won’t remember.

To the friends who constantly remind me what I deserve every time I settle for less.

To the friends who are there every time he disappoints me.

To the friends who get the screenshots even though you told me not to answer.

To the friends who want this story to end but I keep turning the pages bringing you along.

To the friends who don’t give up on me the way he has.

To the friends who love me the way he should.

To the friends who are loyal.

To the friends I know will be standing there on my wedding day.

I love you.

I love you more than I will any boy.