I’ve never been one to half ass many things, love included.
And I don’t love simply. I go into it with everything I have knowing very well it could end badly in a puddle of my own tears. But I also know every once in awhile those chances pay off and something great could come of it.
Just maybe the next chance I take could be the right one.
That’s what I hang onto.
I think a lot of people I don’t know how to love the right way. Many fear not being loved back so they don’t give their heart to anyone freely or fully. But the truth is to love anything in life, really love it or love someone it has to come from a genuine place. It doesn’t require love to even be returned to you. The right kind of love is one in which you give knowing well you might not get anything from it. Love comes bearing no pressure or expectation. To be the type of person who can love others without needing it for themselves, that’s what will get you the love you deserve.
I know this. I live by this. I say I love you probably ‘too many’ times in my life. But I always mean it. If there’s one thing I’m good at, it’s loving the right way.
But love is as complicated as it is simple.
It’s easy to fall in love. It’s impossible to fall out of it.
It’s easy to love others. It’s impossible to teach someone how to love themselves.
It’s easy to say I love you. It’s hard when you don’t hear it back.
And I’ll be the first to admit I’m not an easy person to love, maybe because I value it. Maybe because I put it on some pedestal. But maybe it deserves to be there because when you find the right love it’s everything.
I love too easy when maybe I’d benefit from being guarded.
I trust too simply when maybe I should wait a little longer.
I fall too fast and believe too deeply but it’s my unwavering faith that it will one day be mine all but fully is what will get me there.
Maybe heartbreak isn’t supposed to make you bitter. Maybe we need to get our hearts broken a hundred times just for that one time of getting it right to learn it’s worth it.
I know heartbreak means I’m taking the right types of chances in life.
But maybe it’s me doing it right and everyone else is wrong.
Maybe we need to take those chances fearlessly to get this type of thing we all want even if we won’t admit it.
Love is a bit of gambling and I’ve always been one who plays for keeps. Not only do I play for keeps but it’s a game I’m good at.
But the game I play is different than the one we’ve come to know about dating.
I’ll always play the right type of game. I’ll never play to hurt you. I’ll never play to lead you on. In a world full of liars I promise you I’ll always be honest.
And the honest truth is I’ll do everything to make it work.
Because this is how you love the right way.
Be good to others.
And love unconditionally.
Love comes with a bit of risk. The risk is getting hurt. It comes with walls crumbling down when all you want to do is run the other way and build them back up. It comes having faith in one another when you don’t know what is ahead. And trusting each other despite doubts.
And if you can trust me and take a chance on me it’ll be worth it.
I ask a few things of you, have patience with me. While I love freely and try to be cautious, I understand the downside to being this type of person. It doesn’t always end in my favor.
I’m not an easy person to love because I value it so deeply. But I don’t have grand expectations.
Love me and I’ll love you back. It’s that simple.