You Used To Be My Everything, But Now You’re Nothing

Joseph Strauch
Joseph Strauch

It’s been a while since we’ve spoken. And that’s okay. I don’t mind it. You used to be my everything, but now you’re nothing.

Remember when we used to talk about the guys who broke my heart in the past and you promised me that you wouldn’t do the same? Well, you did anyway. Not once, not twice, but a million times.

Remember when I told you that I was just another option to you and you promised me that I was going to become your main priority? Bullshit. I was never your main priority. I wasn’t even your only woman.

Remember when you told me that you still loved me a month after we broke up? Even though you’d been dating a new girl for that entire month?

I would admit that it wasn’t all pain, that there was love and happiness between the two of us. But that love and happiness wasn’t enough. It wasn’t enough to make up for all of the pain you caused me. It wasn’t enough for us to stay together.

You cheated three times and I was stupid enough to forgive you, over and over again. I believed it when you said that it was a mistake and that you would never do it again. But you did, over and over again. I believed that you would change, because I believed that our love was bigger than your mistakes, but I was wrong.

There are days when I miss the idea of you. The idea of our relationship. But there isn’t a day when I miss you.

I gave you everything. But in return, you left me with deep, invisible scars that won’t heal. You ruined my favorite song. You destroyed my belief that “not all guys are the same.” You destroyed the idea that I’m enough.

After everything you’ve done, I won’t be the same. I won’t be the same girl who believed in fairytales and happily ever afters. I won’t be able to trust anyone. I won’t be able to let my guard down. I will always think that boys who like me are fuck boys, just like you.

But thank you. Thank you for being my best friend. Thank you for loving me the best way you could. Thank you for trying. Thank you for hurting me. And thank you for letting me go. It’s the best thing that has ever happened to me.

Now, I realize my worth. Now, I understand that we were never really meant to be together in the end. Now, I know that sometimes love really isn’t enough.

Thank you for giving me a chance to learn. Thank you for letting me go and causing the most painful days of my life. Because of you, I’m stronger. Because of you, I can stand on my own. And because of you, I love myself more than ever.

I hope you’re happy now, because I know I am. Thought Catalog Logo Mark

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