All The Things I Want You To Know

 Arkady Lifshits
Arkady Lifshits

Please know that I am happy for you. I heard that you like someone now. I heard that you really like her. With her in your life now, I have things that I would like to tell you if I had the chance or if I had the courage at all to tell you face to face.

I want you to know that I am thankful that you came into my life. I am thankful still, even if it had to end and that we had to go our separate ways.

I want you to know that I have let go of everything, all my questions, my fears, my what ifs, my understated pain, everything that involves you. I have accepted the fact that this is what we’ll ever be. Nothing more and maybe someday, less.

I want you to know that you don’t affect me now as much as you did before. I don’t spend my day wondering where you are and who you’re with or if you would tell me everything about what happened to you during the day. I just don’t wonder about you anymore.

I want you to know that I see you as a different person now. I still see you on social media from time to time and there are times that I try to recall the ‘you’ when we were……..well, anyway, the ‘you’ that I remember is so far from the ‘you’ that I’m seeing now. I’m not sure if you changed or if that’s who you really are and that I just didn’t get the chance to really know you much.

Lastly, I want you to know that I am okay now. Really.

Please take care of her. Guard her heart as much as you guard yours. Treat her well. Never do something that would make her question your intentions to her. If you can’t say it now, make her feel how much you care for her, how much she means to you and how much you could love her only if she lets you.

If you think she’s worth it, don’t get tired in pursuing her, in showing her that you are worth her time and effort, that you deserve the trust that she gives you. Or just gather all the courage you could get and just tell her. Tell her. She’s worth the risk. If she’s that important to you, then she is worth the risk. Just don’t get tired. Don’t get discouraged. Fight for her if you have to.

I believe that you are good and I pray that the universe will be kind to you as much as you are kind to people. As much as you were kind to me.

That is all.  Thought Catalog Logo Mark

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