Maybe you’re having a really rough time right now. Maybe you’ve lost a loved one or a job or someone that isn’t even dead. Maybe school or just your life in general seems to be becoming too hard for you. Maybe your parents are too hard on you or on each other. Maybe you did something you regret or hurt someone close to you. Maybe that person who promised you forever, decided forever isn’t all that long to them. Maybe someone who said they would be there, left.
Or maybe you just feel as if the whole world is working against you.
But it’s okay to feel like that.
It’s okay to feel sad or angry or like you don’t know what to do. It’s okay to feel hopeless or desperate, like there’s nothing you can do. It’s okay to not be over it yet. Because that’s just what you’ll do. You’ll cry and you’ll think about it and regret everything. You’ll think about how much it hurts. You’ll sit by yourself in your room and wonder what you could have done differently. You’ll nod politely and say “yes” when someone asks if you are okay, when you both know you aren’t. You’ll tell that person you don’t need them.
But don’t let it control you. Don’t let it make you afraid. Don’t let it make you think you’re not good enough or that it’s your fault. Don’t think you’re alone. Don’t push your friends or your family away. Don’t become who hurt you and don’t think it’s not okay to ask for help. Don’t hate the world.
Because things will get better. I know it doesn’t always seem like it and everything seems like the end of the world. But one day you’ll wake up and those thoughts won’t hardly cross your mind anymore. You’ll think of the good times you’ve had with someone you’ve lost. You’ll raise an average with a good test. You’ll see that person you used to be close with and it will hurt far less than it ever did before. You’ll start doing things for yourself.
That’s what getting better is, improving yourself.
Wake up whenever you want, eat a nice breakfast, put on some nice clothes or even clothes you just like. Do something differently. Talk to new people. Make time with your friends. They love you. Spend time with your parents or grandparents, they love you too. Text that person you want to talk to. Forgive that person for all they’ve done. Listen to your music and go outside. You’ll see that this world is far too big and beautiful to waste your time being sad or angry at it.
But don’t rush it. Some days getting better, is just getting out of bed.
Just realize there’s a time to let go.
I can’t tell you when that time is, it could take weeks or months or years or it might just happen without you ever really noticing. Although the situation isn’t what you wanted, you’ll find peace with it. Because peace exists in everything we hold close to us. A lot of people say that time will make everything better. But if there’s one thing I’ve learned this past year, it’s that time may not make the situation better, but it will make you better.
And maybe that’s all that really matters.