There are scars in me that my present self has because of the undeniable pain my past self had undergone. There are broken lines in my veins that I hope would be gone someday. Life happens. That’s it.
There were times when I thought my chest would burn because of all the heavy burden I have collected in me. I have collected anger, hatred, vengeance and even envy.
My wounds include the facts that some of the people who are closest to me betrayed me and didn’t truly cared for me. My aches were coming from all the people who stepped their feet on my pride and made me feel unworthy of everything I want in life.
I was chaos. I was a mess. I was less than what myself expects me to be. I was in pain. I suffered.
Time flies. I realized things I’ve never even thought of before. I realized that I’m ready to be who I am supposed to be. I won’t be this huge ball of mess. I want to heal.
Healing is a choice. Time don’t always heal, acceptance does.
I healed not because my scars are gone, I healed because of the profound truth that I am meant for bigger things and not for petty things.
I healed because I want to.
My scars were there but the messiness of each and everyone of them were long gone. I can never changed the past but I can always accept it. I can always mend it today to make way for a better tomorrow. Yesterday was gone, but today is still here. And today, I choose myself above all the irrevocable mistakes I have had. I am more than the scars in my heart.
My thoughts about vengeance were gone because I realized there are more people who genuinely loves and cares for me. I don’t need people who don’t need me.
I know I healed the minute I stopped asking someone else to save me.
I healed because I saved myself.
My life is more than my scars and my flaws. My life isn’t perfect and it will never be. But here’s the best thing about my life; anyone can try to break me, anyone can betray me, anyone can make me a mess but I am more than what meets the eye. I am a strong, independent woman who doesn’t need saving because I am more than enough.