I Donated Eggs (Again) And I Don’t Know How To Feel About It

Flickr / Alejandro Alarcon
Flickr / Alejandro Alarcon

People say this a lot: “The money will come after you get your degree!”

But what if people get tired of taking out student loans with no guarantee that they’ll find an awesome job after they get such degree?

I donated eggs once before, and just last week, I went through donating the second time. Blame it on my low self-esteem, not having rich parents, and college tuition simply being unaffordable.

Being the desperate college student trying to pay for school every way possible, I agreed to do donate for a second time for $24,000. I don’t know how every other college student in the USA affords a college degree without taking out a bunch of loans or parental support. Being without my parent’s support, I get sick and tired of working full-time yet college still seems ridiculously expensive, being broke and struggling with a bunch of loans. So donating eggs just seemed like an easy way out.

To be an egg donor your family must not have any genetic diseases, you go through a psychological evaluation, you have to visit a clinic one day a week for a month, and go through all kinds of examinations. Then they fly you out to California for a week or two — for some reason all recipients that offer high compensation all request their donors to fly out to Los Angeles. And that’s when you start self-injecting hormones until the retrieval. You will be put under for the retrieval, like any other surgery. They put you to sleep, once you wake up it’s all done, and you feel cramps that eventually go away.

It was easy money, and I’d pick donating eggs over being a sugar baby any day, at least it’s quicker money and I maintain my dignity. It’s much less degrading, and you’re helping a couple. Most people usually don’t look down on it.

But at the same time, all the hormones you inject will make you feel like a pregnant women, I felt bloated, sick, aching every day while I was in California. Doctors had retrieved 18 eggs. Sure, it was a lot of money, but now I can’t help but wonder what that child that I’d never get to meet will look like. I began to wonder if I’d have a hard time having a baby going forward? Will I get my menopause much sooner? Will I get cancer from all the hormones medications I injected? I have so many questions that will never get answered till I am older, many of which I will have to find out on my own.

The biggest lesson I learned from donating eggs is that easy money is never just that. Risking your health for money is one of the worst ways to make money.

I cherish my life a lot more now.

I crave my own child now, not knowing if I’ll ever see the face of my own child, since all women have limited supply of eggs in this lifetime.

I am constantly worried about my own health and life now. Not knowing how much shorter my life will be.

But at the same time, I go to bed at night often feeling proud that I brought two couples in this world the gift of life.

I don’t know if I’ll ever figure out how to feel about donating my eggs, and giving a life to a baby I will never see. I still wonder if I did the right thing every day.

Being a college student truly sucks. TC mark

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