Being in love is the most amazing feeling in the world, knowing that another soul cares for your existence in this world. However, being in love also means experiencing pain and being hurt. It’s a two-in-one package.
Loving an unavailable guy was like playing a tug of war. No matter how much you tried pulling him towards you, it’s like he’s not moving any inch closer and the pressure you give in pulling him will only hurt you more.
At the end, you’ll gain nothing but blisters and sore from all the pain of giving your all to win him, but realizing in the end that he’s not worth it.
Because let’s admit it. He’s unavailable. Probably emotionally, committed, etc. He’s like the brightest flame that is so attractive to the eyes, but as the song goes “When there is a flame, someone is bound to get hurt.”
I know the constant feeling of hopelessness of trying to figure out how he’s going to change and how he’s going to fully commit to you. The sleepless nights of thinking what’s lacking in you that he can’t choose you over anything else. That you’re just an option and not a priority. I know how hard it is to be judged by people for the kind of love you’ve planted, but still choose to do so even knowing that there is uncertainty of sowing the same kind of love you’ve given.
However, all the endless nights of crying alone has ended. You have proven how strong you are for finally letting him go. For putting yourself first, for knowing that you deserve the best. You have proven how big your heart was for accepting the situation and also how tough it is for knowing when to stop and get over to that toxic relationship. You are a fighter.
You didn’t win by getting him to be yours, but by growing into the best version of yourself now. You are beautiful and wonderful. You don’t need to change for a person and you don’t need to wait forever to make him available. You made it this far.
Live a happy life. You deserved all the good things the world.