The Allure Of Girls (By A Straight Girl)

The tea was starting to wear off. It was the 4th of July (happy Independence Day, white man!) or Tom’s birthday or just another New York night, there was no way to tell, really. Perhaps three hours had passed—we weren’t really sure about that, either. All we knew was that from paroxysms of laughter, a bucket of ice (now melted, my fingers prunish) and Emma’s paranoia that she was somehow miraculously naked, we were being relieved of a wonderful insanity.

We sat in the humidity, smoking cigarettes, completely relaxed and finally clear headed. As others recounted the madness, I withdrew, briefly, into my own thoughts. I balanced on the edge of Tom’s bed, bodies strewn around me, when my eyes fell upon the backs of two girls perched on the opposite side of the bed.

They giggled, leaned into each other in covert whispers. Each of their soft, fleshy arms brushed against the other, and as one whispered into the other’s ear I could feel the sickly warm secret breath as if it were upon my own neck. A shudder crippled me momentarily; then I was completely still in the thrall of the gentle touches, the knowing smiles and furtive murmurings of the two girls.

They both had smooth, flawless skin, one slightly more caramel than the other. The darker girl had her hair in a bun on the top of her head and it fell about the nape of her neck in whisps, haphazardly stroking the bare skin that peeped from the top of her t-shirt. The other girl had long, frizzy hair that she would delicately pull into a bunch by the side of her face every so-and-so, hold it their briefly, before letting it fall back across her arching, feline back.

Everytime the second girl moved into the first girl, her shoulder blades would push into her skin, creating sensual undulations across her back and it was all I could do to not reach out and touch her. Her weight—shifted slightly towards her friend—fell gracefully into her ass, giving her a womanly, hourglass shape that was streamlined to feminine perfection. I was enraptured by the curve in her thigh, the way her short skirt clung to her and refused to reveal that most precious intelligence that, for perhaps the first time, I found myself hankering for.

There was something magical in their small touches. The way they reached out for each other, the absolute tenderness in the way they handled one another. I looked across to where my friend Rachel was sitting and watched her talking to a boy. Although they were friends there was a space between them that in that moment seemed more like a void. They were awkward, unsure. They lacked the innate sensuality of the girls who, even in friendship, invoked both an innocence and lust that was so unmistakably feminine.

I’ve never slept with a girl—but I found myself thinking about it. I thought about the soft grooves, the dips and wells and the supple skin on a woman. I thought about that closeness (the stuff that I was watching pass between these two friends) and the warmth of sameness. I thought about how effortlessly the girlish tossing of hair, the accidental brush of a thigh or absentmided stroking of finger against a lip could become so instantly sexual, even to me, a straight girl. I thought about the allure of girls, and in a rare moment, I was happy to be one. TC mark

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  • Megan

    oh my, this is very good

    • Megan

      and my surprise when I saw it was written by Kat George!

      • Guest

        ouch. the hand giveth and taketh away, eh?

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  • Anonymous

    i’m just like… why do i care?

    • ELLA Y

      so eloquent, brava!

    • ELLA Y

      so eloquent, brava!

      • Anonymous

        I KNOWZ RIGHT?!?!

      • Anonymous

        I KNOWZ RIGHT?!?!

  • http://www.facebook.com/sarah.n.knutson Sarah N. Knutson

    The taggings get me every time. ‘Sorry boys…’ ahahaha!!

  • Sam

    this makes me want to read something long by you (re a book) – the writing here felt like it could be an excerpt from a novel or something for some reason

    • xra

      yea a corndog-ass romance novel

      • astounded

        Wow, you must read many books, as exhibited by your eloquent “corndog-ass” remark. If only America were filled with more brilliant scholars like you…

    • Sally Jenkins

      I don’t think you understand how “re” works.

  • jack

    girls are so into themselves its annoying

  • jack

    girls are so into themselves its annoying

  • Orkey

    love u

  • http://www.facebook.com/profile.php?id=1363230138 Michael Koh

    WHY DIDN’T YOU DO IT

  • Blue

    Thank you for sharing your experience.

    You noted the space, the void, between Rachel and the boy. If you watch, you’ll see that the same physical void exists between almost all adult males. (In America it does, but that could be different elsewhere.) Touching is important, whether it is sexual, sensual, comforting, or welcoming, and I’m afraid that we’ve been conditioning men away from any kind of touching other than sexual.

    • http://twitter.com/NukeSpoon Crispy Frontboat

      I know I am personally paranoid about body contact with anyone in case of “OH GOD WHAT THE CHRIST ARE YOU DOING”.

    • Guest

      both males and females have been taught throughout time that the female body is more sensual than the male body. that is the only conditioning i got out of this article..

  • http://thefirstchurchofmutterhals.blogspot.com/ mutterhals

    The allure of girls: va-hine-a

  • lilmammaET

    really liked this…..made my lady bits get a lil warm

  • Guest

    next time write about bromance

  • Cecily

    Wow…I definitely relate as a straight girl!
    Sometimes it feels so natural to be with a girl…you would know just what to do

  • lou lou

    the last line ruins it. show not tell show not tell!

  • Jane

    Men’s bodies can be just as entrancing, you just have to pay attention, as they are not on display the way women’s bodies usually are. I agree with the other commentators who said that “both males and females have been taught throughout time that the female body is more sensual than the male body.” I would also say that men and boys are taught that it is not part of masculinity to be sensual, tender, or intimate with anyone. I’ve noticed that sometimes, males don’t hug or touch even their mothers very often. As Blue said, “I’m afraid that we’ve been conditioning men away from any kind of touching other than sexual.” Touch is such a nuanced, powerful tool for communication that its a shame we are so neurotic about it.

    • Paz

      I’m a straight girl, and even I can say that the female form…in a purely objective way, is far more beautiful and sensual.

      This isn’t ‘conditioning’.Me and my female friends are allcapable of acknowledging how hot a girl is,  of checking girls out, of even wanting to touch. I can’t imagine my boyf and his friends saying the same about…other boys :/

      I mean, just think about the punani. Innately more beautiful than the male dong. It looks like a flower, no wonder it is depicted so lovingly in art.

      • ..

        most “punanis” look like dried up shriveled flowers, if you ask me. not sensual at all. it’s called conditioning by males. males have objectified the female body for centuries, this is the only reason why we think the female body is more pretty. you have no idea what conditioning means, clearly.

      • Paz

        Erm….as a completely straight female, I can definitely say there is no ‘dried up shriveled flower’ aspect to a vagina. I mean, if you’re a girl, I almost feel sorry for your vag that you feel that way. And if you’re a guy that’s into girls, I feel sorry for every poor lass that’s been with you.

        A vagina looks (and feels)like a rose. It is soft and plump and pink and delicate. It’s shapes and curves and folds from various angles are entrancing. These are some of the reasons why artists such as Georgia O’Keeffe were so inspired to paint these shapes.

        A woman’s body, moreover, is simply beautiful. Soft, full, curves and dips. The shapes and undulations are aesthetically inspiring.  And a beautfiul female face cannot be beat.In fact, most boys who are gorgeous often have some feminisation to their faces.

        How do you explain that the things I find most beautiful about women have nothing to do with the things about a woman’s body that are commonly objectified?? Try not to make wild assumptions about the source of my thoughts, feelings and opinions.

      • guesst

        I agree with you that vaginas are lovely.  But, you clearly don’t understand what conditioning is.

      • Paz

        The concept of conditioning is really not that hard to understand. A lack of understanding is not the *only* way I can disagree with you.

        Someone truly holding the belief, regardless of their sexual orientation, that a women are innately more physically beautiful than men, isn’t ALWAYS simply a matter of societal conditioning or a result of consistent objectification.

        Sometimes, (as hard as this may be to believe), the belief would be held even if women weren’t objectified. Sometimes, it has nothing to do with conditioning. Do you understand this? Though these things are hard to scientifically prove, I can speak at length about actual, physical reasons why the female form is innately more pleasing to the eye without having “CONDITIONING!” hollered at me.

        Unless it is the same conditioning that compels humans to find flowers pretty and poo ugly (I am not saying boys are poo).

      • Cecily

        “conditioning- a behavioral process whereby a response becomes more frequent or more predictable in a given environment as a result of reinforcement, with reinforcement typically being a stimulus or reward for a desired response.” Based on the assumption that human behaviour is learned.

        I guess I have to agree with Paz, in the sense that one cannot conclusively prove that the behaviour is learned/conditioned/reinforced, however subliminally.

        While I believe the objectification of women is reinforced from an early age, I don’t think it necessarily leads directly to the kinds of things Paz (or I,for that matter) feel about the female body.

        I mean, my own body turns me on! And the things about it that turn me on…aren’t necessarily things that are learned or reinforced. Actually, they are very esoteric and subjective.

        Moreover, beauty isn’t necessarily conditioning. The reaction/attraction to beauty is often biological. Even young infants are more likely to smile at an attractive face than an unattractive one. Yet, at 1 or 2 monthsold, how can we insist this is conditioning?

        In the same way, I also hold the opinion that a woman’s body, is objectively more beautiful than a mans. I have never slept with a woman, but I have no aversion to the concept at all. Sometimes the thought is even a turn on. But I speak as a heterosexual.I can also say the same of almost all of my straight female friends. And I can say, with certainty, that almost all ofmy straight male friends are near-revolted by the idea of fucking a guy.

        Is sexual attraction/sexual arousal also conditioning?
        Because then you enter some rather murky water.

      • afdafa

        men’s body is a work of art
        woman’s body as well
        nothing is more beautiful than the other
        poon nor penis sure as hell don’t look like roses
        roses are way nicer to stare at and smell lol

      • afdafa

        men’s body is a work of art
        woman’s body as well
        nothing is more beautiful than the other
        poon nor penis sure as hell don’t look like roses
        roses are way nicer to stare at and smell lol

  • Jane

    Men’s bodies can be just as entrancing, you just have to pay attention, as they are not on display the way women’s bodies usually are. I agree with the other commentators who said that “both males and females have been taught throughout time that the female body is more sensual than the male body.” I would also say that men and boys are taught that it is not part of masculinity to be sensual, tender, or intimate with anyone. I’ve noticed that sometimes, males don’t hug or touch even their mothers very often. As Blue said, “I’m afraid that we’ve been conditioning men away from any kind of touching other than sexual.” Touch is such a nuanced, powerful tool for communication that its a shame we are so neurotic about it.

  • Anonymous

    this is like soft core porn

  • http://www.facebook.com/profile.php?id=1198922828 Marianna Elvira

    beautifully written.

  • Indescifrable

    so basically I love being a girl and girls in general

  • http://imlikecocaine.wordpress.com/ Ana

    I feel you. there’s something about a woman’s body, gestures…curves, smile, lips, smell, and the taste…i’m truly feeling bisexual sometimes, especially when i find myself stare in awe at artistic nudes or friends of mine and secretely want to kiss them.

  • http://www.facebook.com/profile.php?id=100002063779137 Lindsay Wade

    Kat is my fave writer on TC.

  • http://www.facebook.com/profile.php?id=704016484 Joe Ott

    Honestly honest; your prose is ecstatic. Keep writing.  

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