4 Clichés I Can Never Say Out Loud

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  1. I said you were different and I meant it.
  2. You’re imperfect. That’s what makes you perfect.
  3. You’re the perfect combination of bad and good.
  4. You’re worth more than you think you are.

If you just asked, I would have told you all the clichés you would have wanted to hear. Heart-melting, gut wrenching, tear jerking clichés you may have seen on a tumblr post, on a thought catalogue, on a sarcastic buzz feed or on an emotional tweet. & Those are just a few that fit you like skinny jeans. The difference is, there are words you don’t see that lie in between them.

Here’s the breakdown:

1.) I said you were different and I meant it. – I wish I could have told how when you walked into the room I knew the idea of you would never leave me alone. How I could replay those moments over and over again to pretend that it happened more than once, that it could happen all-over again.

2.) You’re imperfect. That’s what makes you perfect. – I hate the way you smoke like the sun has set indefinitely. But your scent in my hair brings me back to the memory of your embrace, the closest I’ll ever get to you. For a moment I thought you were right behind me, with that faint smell of smoke in your skin but when I looked back, all I saw was a memory.

3.) You’re the perfect combination of bad and good. – You keep up float, do all the don’ts & work out the won’ts. A hiccup in your swagger, you are an unreckonable force.

4.) You’re worth more than you think you are. – You told me once that you had a dream about me and this girl you once liked. We compared you to the guy she eventually fell for. It made you sad. But none of that was real. I told you that none of that was real. If you just asked, I would have told you, you’re worth it. I would have told you that you’re different, and meant it. I would have told you that you’re imperfect but that’s what makes you perfect. I would have told you that you’re the perfect combination of bad and good. I would have told you that no one has ever made me feel so welcome in such an unfamiliar place. I would have told you that you gave me butterflies when you said you saw me as a sunny summer kind of girl. I would have told you that whenever you sat next to me, my heart smiled. I would have told you that I admire your cool offbeat presence, that I love the way you sketched your thoughts into existence, that you brought out a smile I never knew existed with every good morning that took me hours to respond to while I danced on tip toes and screamed into my pillow. I would have told you how much those little things meant to me. I would have told you that I may not know you like they do, but I’d like to. I would have told you that, I think people like you are obsolete. But no, you never asked, so I never told you.

If you asked, I would have let it all go.

Without you asking, I know it’s time to let you, go.

But thank you, for stopping by.