I took a chance on love and it didn’t work out but I’m not giving up.
After that “first love” that didn’t work out, we all think it is the absolute end of the world as we know it. I’ll be honest, it was really only about 2-3 months of being together and I thought he was “the one”. I had a girlfriend in my high school class that did not want to go alone on her date with this new guy she met, so she set me up with his best friend. I took one for the team and said “sure, why not?” to this blind date. Little did I know, it would be my first love. Head over heels is an understatement. He was funny, handsome, and had a smile that would force a smile upon your face, even on your worst day. He was older, wiser, and was from a different high school (the ultimate cool factor because he was new and exciting, am I right?). He then moved away for college and my heart was shattered into a million pieces. At 17 I could not fathom how someone that loves you could ever leave you.
It took a long time to understand it. I found him seeping back into my mind almost every day, for quite some time. It might have only been a teeny tiny three-month relationship, but he was the kind of soul with a certain energy that you could not easily forget.
Years went by. During that time, I found myself in a four-and-a-half-year relationship, and then a 6-month one.
So, I kept trying.
I can be a hopeless romantic, I suppose you could say. My next move proved it to be true. I wanted something real, someone that was just as crazy as I was when it came to love. And there he was, all tall, dark and handsome. We met in a country neither of us were from. It was a place of paradise, surrounded by the ocean, and he seemed to be Mr. Perfect. So, I did what any girl would do. I packed up my things and moved to be with him. He had just moved there for work, so I took the chance and moved to give love a shot. It was nothing short of chaotic. We moved too fast, some would say, so we’ll go ahead and blame it on that. Personally, I will tell you that a Taurus does not belong with a Gemini, at least not in most cases (don’t @ me).
I had just turned 25 and then my relationship ended, yet again. It is difficult to not start believing that there is something wrong with yourself after what seems like so much failure. But don’t worry guys, it takes two to tango.
In the end, I was the one, after some on-again, off-again (in most cases), that always decided to call it quits. Yes, in all of these relationships except one. Surprisingly enough, it does not make you feel any better knowing you were the one to end it. In fact, it makes you feel pretty hopeless because you just wanted one damn relationship to work out. So, ladies and gents, it turns out good things do take time. And why would it be easy to find your everlasting soulmate so early in your life when there are 7.5 billion of us here on Earth, all looking for our soulmate at the same time?
I like to think of it as having 500 people in one tiny room, shoulder to shoulder, trying to make their way through the crowd with the task of finding one specific person. You bump into many people along the way, as you try to make your way through. Some people you take a liking to, others you just want to get past. You meet many people on your search, but it is nothing short of grueling trying to find a single person in that room full of so many, especially when there can be so many great ones.
More often than not, I have come to find that at the exact moment you have lost hope, something is right around the corner waiting for you, to pick you up and turn you back into a believer.
Blame it on the full moon and all of its exciting changes it brings into our lives, or destiny, or whatever you wish to blame it on, but life doesn’t stop just because you’re down. Something new is coming. And it is going to pick you back up, whether it be tomorrow or next week, it is drawing you closer and closer to where you are supposed to be, and with who you are supposed to be with. Unfortunately, this person isn’t going to be standing right outside your front door with a spotlight shining down on them. Actually, this person is probably not even within a 25-mile radius of you.
But you will find them, and they will find you.
And if that isn’t enough for you, try to remember, “success consists of going from failure to failure without loss of enthusiasm.”