I cared about you more than any other person in my life for a very long time. I always put you first. I would have done anything for you, but in the darkest, deepest corners of my mind, I always knew I cared more about you than you did about me.
Most, if not all, of our anxieties are rooted in fear. We are afraid of what we can lose, what can happen to us, and mostly, we are afraid of the unknown.
It’s easy to be affected by this harsh, dark world when you’re like me and don’t have a hard outer shell, but you need to learn to be proud of your soft exterior and how rare it truly is in this day and age.
I don’t wear running tights for your enjoyment. I don’t set out on a run looking for your attention. I wear running tights to be comfortable. To run faster, longer, harder. I run to feel unstoppable, strong and empowered, not degraded.
Our entire world was crumbling, life as we know it could very well be changed forever, yet the earth was still rotating. People were going about their lives like everything was normal, yet for us, nothing was normal and everything was a mess. It was as if life in this moment didn’t make sense.
For a long time I dreaded going anywhere I knew people would ask me the question “What are you up to?” A college friend’s engagement party surrounded by former classmates I rarely see? Anxiety central.