There are certain people that come into your life that were never the thing you expected. Some are so bad that you wish you could rewind and erase them all together. And some are so good, that all you want to do is replay them over and over again.
Just so that your heart can feel that full again.
You fall somewhere in-between. Because there are times when I can barely contain my happiness. All the hope that you give to me, it overflows and I can feel myself falling into you. Without any reason at all, you feel like home.
And then there are the times where I feel myself moving backwards. Where I get unsure, where I just want to standstill for fear of doing too much or saying the wrong thing.
It’s like you’re so important to me that I don’t want to mess it up. Because I’m still waiting for you.
To meet me somewhere in the middle, to give me the same things that I gave to you, that I am still giving to you.
But that’s the thing. If you’re still making up your mind, I’m not so sure that I even want to know the answer.
I know that we all move at different speeds, that sometimes it takes us a little longer to say how we feel, to get to where we’re going. And that’s all well and good.
But you can’t leave me on the edge. You can’t expect me to distant myself when you tell me you can’t breathe, and in the same moment pull me closer.
That’s not how this works and it’s not how love works. I know that you are good, but I also know that everyone deserves a little clarity.
Especially when it comes to matters of the heart.
All this greyness, all this undefined, never knowing which lines to cross, it’s hurting me. And if you can’t see that maybe you weren’t the person I thought you were after all.
So, what I’m really trying to say is pick a lane. Make up your mind. Make a choice. If you want to love me, then love me. It’s that simple.
And if you don’t, then just walk away now. Trust me when I say that it’ll hurt me a lot less than whatever this is.
I won’t beg with you, not for your time or attention, not even for your heart.
But what I will ask you, is to be with me or set me free.